I just got an eviction notice.. that I’m to leave this house inside of 3 months.

I have no idea what this means in practice.

The house, of course, is the house I grew up in.. the Eviction notice is from.. well basically from my father’s Guardian, on his behalf.. or the lawyer for where she works.. Jewish family services.

Now apparently there is a legal system here.. a process..

The trouble is I’m on disability and getting section 8 housing, or subsidized housing.. there’s waiting lists… so that finding a place to move out to inside of that 3 month period.. may or may not be realistic..

And if it’s not realistic.. and I do whatever I can to get out.. then it may be that I can’t just be made homeless like that.

So I probably shouldn’t be freaking out.. not till I get to talk to a lawyer anyway… but to be woken up by this.. from deep sleep.. is not an easy thing…

To be served by this is sorta unexpected..

At this point I don’t interact with my father’s Guardian.. my therapist does on my behalf.. as said guardian had quiet a way of pushing me into the suicidal area code.. Just really by the way she does things…..

There had just been a conversation.. or she had been saying to my therapist that I would have to leave on account of my father not being able to afford the heat.. and the water would have to be turned off so the pipes don’t break.

But what about fuel assistance? Or that the bills we had for gas an electric that were in his name didn’t reflect a disability rate which is what he should be paying.. or if I were paying it.. that I should be paying?

This was maybe a month ago.. and I had gone to try and make an appointment for fuel assistance but there’s no way of doing that unless I have an actual fuel bill… for the heat.. and of course I didn’t because it’s in his name and they don’t go to me anyway.

So what my therapist was going to do was to ask her to have the bill in my name.. I would pay it.. and it was up to me to get the fuel assistence.. or that she could apply for fuel assistence in his name.

Well I haven’t heard anything more of this.. and now I get the notice to evict.

In my view..

This is sorta.. the way said Gaurdian operates.. it really has nothing to do with an issue of heating the house and the pipes.. it has to do with her wanting me out of the house because it makes her job more difficult.. and I’m sure it’s totally true that he’s run out of money.. and they need to sell the house, and whatever that’s in it that is of value.. for nursing home bills..

So I appreciate the situation.. or try to.. my father’s situation and hers… but.. it’s the manipulative nature.. of how she operates.. that infuriates me. That before I had any kind of legal knowledge or anything.. she would stomp on my rights.. with all kinds of threats of how she was going to come here and call the police if I wasn’t here to meet her… and she would change the locks and it would be illegal for me to then go and try and break in…

And then, of course…. on the day I was to meet her.. she doesn’t show up.

I see her as a bit of a bully… I’ve tried to like her.. but it’s not easy when you’re in my position… being threatened with homelessness… and all the rest.

At one point she seemed almost angelic.. she helping me to find housing.. through the process.. but I have sever social anxiety that makes it very difficult.. and she wasn’t very nurturing about that I will tell you. If a problem came up where my anxiety made it difficult to do whatever the thing was… she would threaten…. and thus make my anxiety all the worse.. (thus pushing me into the suicidal area code)

I’m told that people in her position are over worked.. and I did get that impression…. and that a lot of what she does could come down to that.. and that this situation where I take her as manipulative.. could have to do with her being over worked and just not being able to spend enough time looking at the subject to see it clearly..

But I’m skeptical of all that.

What upsets me is here I was trying to take care of my father.. and then she steps in…. and if my father didn’t have Alzheimer’s and knew what was going on.. I can tell you that this is not how he’d want things handled.

The only thing I can think, really.. is that she thinks I think I can stay here indefinitely.. or should.. and she needs to show me that she’s serious.. and thus the serving of the notice to evict. That seems reasonable to me but…

Why she would think that I don’t know

She had helped to get me on disability… and apparently the social security office suggested that it would probably be best if I had a payee.. I guess is what it’s called.. so somehow it was as if I had been declared unfit to spend my own money, and she was suddenly in charge of my money.

I couldn’t believe this bullshit! How can someone just do this to you without even consulting you? How can you just be declared unfit to spend your money and so now you don’t have your money? All kinds of horrible things happened to me because I didn’t have that money… and that she could spend that money without me even being notified?

Sure.. she did this on my car insurance.. which is a reasonable thing.. but still.. that I don’t even know about it?

So there was this process to get me the money… or there was this lump sum as a part of the disability… and what ended up happening is.. the place I go for my therapist and psychiatrist.. and other things… also has a payee service.. so the idea was to get it transfered over… this transferring process has taken something like 8 months.. more then twice what it should have.. and who knows why….

So the thing is.. to move out.. I need that money for first and last months rent.. and whatever security deposit. So things had been held up by this.. or this is my understanding anyway.

So I don’t know.. that’s sorta the story as I understand it anyway.